Thursday, August 20, 2009

Passed my biggest challenge...

Walking to work everyday is becoming a strange love affair...I love it and I hate it at the same time. I hate the starting, I hate getting out of bed, I hate the sweating....I love the walk through the farm, and most of the wonderful smells of flowers and plants. I love the focus time, I love the motivation and the "soul" conversations I have with myself. It's a whole new mindset that I'm trying to grow. In school, I took Gym up until I could take art or music instead, then I never looked back. Gym was always my nightmare because I was not good at any of it.

This path of's not an easy path by any means. Some days, it's like scaling Everest! When I started, I could barely walk up a flight of stairs without breaking into a sweat and needing to rest. Now, I can run on the treadmill after walking to work 3 miles...

I know I DID THAT!

I have goals, and I write them down. Each New Years, I write 5 goals, ranging from easy ones to hard ones. I don't always reach them all in the year, but I reach the easy and middle ones, and try to make some sort of progression on the hard ones. (They usually include an action plan to help me see the "steps" I need to take.

The hard part for me is I am a "want it now" person...Long term goals have never been my strong point. That's where the action plan comes in handy. To achieve the larger goal, I can break it down into smaller manageable goals. I need to see a progression to not loose interest.

My last boss, although a mean and nasty woman, taught me some useful tools. "Don't bring me problems, bring me solutions", was her favorite saying. Sometimes I don't always know the whole solution, but reading is self-discovery wrapped in a cover.

Some days, I don't feel very tall...those are the days I stand on top of my achievements, no one can take those away from me. Those are the days when my friends, both online and in the flesh, are so important. Those are the days that I may need to borrow your drive, your fire, or your strength to just get through the day and rediscover my own.

Likewise, my drive, fire and strength are there for you when yours cannot be found.

1 comment:

  1. Great post! I feel the same as you do on so many things.

    I too have a love/hate relationship with walking, but I wouldn't give it up for anything! I love the way I feel when I am pounding the pavement...I feel so alive!

    I am definitely a "want it now" person as well. Still learning that this whole journey takes time, but I still have my moments of wishing it would happen ASAP.

    You are doing an AMAZING job and are simply FAB-U-LESS! Keep up the great work, Jenn! Always here for you when you need a little bit of fire, drive, or strength. :)